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proportion to their light and joy. Such persons among us as have been distinguished with the most extraordinary discoveries of God, have commonly in nowise appeared with the assuming, and self-conceited, and self-sufficient airs of enthusiasts, but exceedingly the contrary; and are eminent for a spirit of meekness, modesty, self-diffidence, and low opinion of themselves. No persons seem to be so sensible of their need of instruction and so eager to receive it as some of them Those that have been thought to be converted among us have generally manifested a longing to lie low and in the dust before God: withal complaining of their not being able to lie low enough. They very often speak much of their sense of the excellency of the way of salvation by free and sovereign grace, through the righteousness of Christ alone; and how it is with delight that they renounce their own righteousness, and rejoice in having no account made of it. Many have expressed themselves to this purpose, that it would lessen the satisfaction they hope for in heaven to have it by their own righteousness, or in any other way than as bestowed by free grace, and for Christ's sake alone. They speak much of the inexpressibleness of what they experience, how their words fail, so that they can in nowise declare it : and particularly speak with exceeding admiration of the superlative excellency of that pleasure and delight of soul which they sometimes enjoy; how a little of it is sufficient to pay them for the pains and trouble they have gone through in seeking salvation, and how far it exceeds all earthly pleasures; and some express much of the sense which these spiritual views give them of the vanity of earthly enjoyments, how mean and worthless all these things appear to them.

Many, while their ininds have been filled with spiritual delights, have as it were forgotten their food; their bodily appetite has failed, while their minds have been entertained with meat to eat that others know not of. The light and comfort which some of them enjoy, gives a new relish to

their common blessings, and causes all things about them to appear as it were beautiful, sweet, and pleasant to them. All things abroad, the sun, moon, and stars, the clouds and sky, the heavens and earth, appear as it were with a cast of divine glory and sweetness upon them. The sweetest joy that these good people among us express is not that which consists in a sense of the safety of their own state, and that now they are out of the danger of hell; frequently in times of their highest spiritual entertainment this seems to be as it were forgotten. The supreme attention of their minds is to the glorious excellencies of God and Christ which they have in view; not but there is very often a ravishing sense of God's love accompanying a sense of his excellency, and they rejoice in a conviction of the faithfulness of God's promises as they respect the future eternal enjoyment of God.

The joy that many of them speak of, as that to which none is to be paralleled, is that which they find when they are lowest in the dust, emptied most of themselves, as it were annihilating themselves before God, when they are nothing and God is all; thus seeing their own unworthiness, depending not at all on themselves but alone on Christ, and ascribing all glory to God: then their souls are most in the enjoyment of satisfying rest, excepting that, at such times, they apprehend themselves to be not sufficiently self-abased; for then above all times do they long to be lower. Some speak much of the exquisite sweetness and rest of soul that is to be found in the exercise of a spirit of resignation to God, and humble submission to his will. Many express earnest longings of soul to praise God; but at the same time complain that they cannot praise him as they would do, and they want to have others help them in praising him: they want to have every one praise God, and are ready to call upon every thing to praise him. They express a longing desire to live to God's glory, and to do something to his honor; but at the same time cry out of their insufficiency and barrenness; that they are poor, impotent creatures, can

do nothing of themselves, and are utterly insufficient to glorify their Creator and Redeemer.

While God was so remarkably present among us by his Spirit, there was no book so delighted in as the Bible; especially the book of Psalms, the prophecy of Isaiah, and the New Testament. Some, by reason of their esteem and love to God's word, have at some times been greatly and wonderfully delighted and affected at the sight of a Bible: and then also, there was no time so prized as the Lord's day, and no place in this world so desired as God's house. Our converts then appeared remarkably united in dear affection to one another, and many have expressed much of that spirit of love which they felt toward all mankind; and particularly to those that had been least friendly to them. Never, I believe, was so much done in confessing injuries, and making up differences, as the last year. Persons after their own conversion have commonly expressed an exceeding desire for the conversion of others: some have thought that they should be willing to die for the conversion of any soul, though of one of the meanest of their fellow-creatures, or of their worst enemies; and many have indeed been in great distress with desires and longings for it. This work of God had also a good effect to unite the people's affections much to their minister.

There are some persons that I have been acquainted with, but more especially two, that belong to other towns, that have been swallowed up exceedingly with a sense of the awful greatness and majesty of God; and both of them told me to this purpose, that if they in the time of it had had the least fear that they were not at peace with this so great a God, they should instantly have died.

It is to be remarked, that some persons by their conversion seem to be greatly helped as to their doctrinal notions of religion; it was particularly remarkable in one, who having been taken captive in his childhood, was trained up in Canada, in the Popish religion; and some years since re

turned to this his native place, and was in a measure brought off from Popery but seemed very awkward and dull of receiving any true and clear notion of the Protestant scheme, till he was converted; and then he was remarkably altered in this respect.

There is a vast difference, as has been observed, in the degree and also in the particular manner of persons' experiences both at and after conversion; some have grace working more sensibly in one way, others in another. Some speak more fully of a conviction of the justice of God in their condemnation; others more of their consenting to the way of salvation by Christ; some, more of the actings of love to God and Christ: some, more of acts of affiance, in a sweet and assured conviction of the truth and faithfulness of God in his promises: others more of their choosing and resting in God as their whole and everlasting portion, and of their ardent and longing desires after God, to have communion with him; others more of their abhorrence of themselves for their past sins, and earnest longings to live to God's glory for the time to come. Some have their mind fixed more on God; others on Christ, as I have observed before; but it seems evidently to be the same work, the same thing done, the same habitual change wrou ht in the heart; it all tends the same way, and to the same end; and it is plainly the same Spirit that breathes and acts in various persons. There is an endless variety in the particular manner and circumstances in which persons are wrought on; and an opportunity of seeing so much of such a work of God, will show that God is further from confining himself to certain steps and a particular method in his work on souls, than it may be some do imagine. I believe it has occasioned some good people among us, that were before too ready to make their own experiences a rule to others, to be loss censorious and more extended in their charity. The work of God has been glorious in its variety; it has the more displayed the manifoldness and unsearchableness of

the wisdom of God, and wrought more charity among his people.

There is a great difference among those that are converted, as to the degree of hope and satisfaction that they have concerning their own state. Some have a high degree of satisfaction in this matter almost constantly; and yet it is rare that any do enjoy so full an assurance of their interest in Christ, that self-examination should seem needless to them; unless it be at particular seasons, while in the actual enjoyment of some great discovery, that God gives of his glory and rich grace in Christ, to the drawing forth of extraordinary acts of grace. But the greater part, as they sometimes fall into dead frames of spirit, are frequently exercised with scruples and fears concerning their condition.

They generally have an awful apprehension of the dreadfulness and fatal nature of a false hope; and there has been observable in most a great caution lest in giving an account of their experiences, they should say too much, and use too strong terms and many, after they related their experiences, have been greatly afflicted with fears lest they have played the hypocrite, and used stronger terms than their case would fairly allow of; and yet could not find how they could correct themselves.

I think that the main ground of the doubts and fears which persons, after their conversion, have been exercised with about their own state, has been that they found so much corruption remaining in their hearts. At first their souls seem to be all alive, their hearts are fixed, and their affections flowing; they seem to live quite above the worid, and meet with but little difficulty in religious exercises; and they are ready to think it will always be so: though they are truly abased under a sense of their vileness by reason of former acts of sin, yet they are not then sufficiently sensible what corruption still remains in their hearts; and therefore are surprised when they find that they begin to be in dull and dead frames, to be troubled with wandering thoughts in the time of public

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